Where NOTHING Seems to Be
What I am writing here documents an experience, a perception so
fascinating, so massive and central that I feel compelled to convey it
to others, - an experience that could easily also be yours.
I can only describe what I perceived, I cannot explain it
- neither intellectually nor logically. I also do not want to convince
you of anything. I relate what I encountered because I hope to awaken within you a deeply hidden, archaic impulse to also tune into this insight.
If it were only me experiencing this, I'd hardly take the trouble to
set this down in print. Yet I observed that telling others triggered
similar perception within them. And because what I experienced is of exceptional beauty, fantastic and magnificent, I am passing it on to you.
Describing what I encountered is far from easy. Its magnitude, its
all-encompassing appeal is so extensive, so far-reaching that our
language simply lacks the words, the vocabulary to convey this type of
An analogy is probably best to give an impression
of the sheer size of this perception: - Suppose we stand before a
skyscraper, say, only one single foot away from it, - we see the stones
immediately in front of our eyes, perhaps a few windowsills. We also
sense the building extending further up, right and left, - but we don't
take in the structure as a whole. There's no orientation how huge it possibly could be, - unless we step back, far back to perceive its entirety.
The same applies to my experience. - Daily life, - that what we
experience each single day, - resembles such a skyscraper. We stand so
close to it, are so involved in all its turbulent events, its feelings,
its challenges that we get no idea, not even a notion of its Entirety,
its Totality, how vast it truly is. Only when we perceive it from a
new, - a distant - angle, do we become aware of the sheer magnitude of
what we are involved in, - of life's immense, fantastic, formative
power, - of its mysterious origin, - and of the majesty and grandeur of
That which manifests this all.
A whiff of this splendor,
this grandness reaches us, when once in a blue moon deep, deep within
us there rises that vague feeling that we are so much more, so much
greater, so much nobler than what we now live, feel, think, act and
tell others. These fleeting insights open our eyes - for whatever brief
time - that existence as a whole is far broader, far wider, and has far
greater dignity than all our materially, egoistically motivated
dealings taken together.
This Grandeur, this
all-encompassing, profound, sublime Majesty deep within us is what I
experienced in supreme intensity, - and it remained awake within me
This insight gave me everything I ever longed for.
showed me the incredible vastness of knowledge, of intuition, of
comprehension, of sovereignty dormant within myself - dormant within every living being.
- It lifted all fear, - and made me aware that any fear is only caused by an exclusive focus on our material form.
- It showed me what this life is really all about, - what I am meant to do with it, - and what it will give me in return.
- And it is infinitely beautiful.
Now, - religiously oriented people might eagerly suggest that I experienced God. - But I emphatically DISAGREE with this opinion. I am certain that any idea
of 'God' is externalizing, is projecting qualities and abilities we
carry deep within to an outside agency that's separate from us. Why
disconnect ourselves from these, our inborn powers that hover just at
the edge of our present awareness?
What did I perceive ?
As long as we transfer
this grand, sublime part of us to an external entity, we simply
restrict our abilities to directly experience its full strength and
make it our own.
We definitely sense (time and again) how exalted and noble we really are
inside, - that we are capable of achieving so much more, able to reach
so much farther than we currently do. - Why not go deeper into this,
our very own notion, and purposely expand it to its true greatness. -
What would the world need more than everyone realizing this supreme
nobility within himself and manifesting it in his daily dealings? -
Are there others who perceive the same ?
As this profound, comprehensive, for me entirely new perception
awoke within, I wanted to know if there were others who had experienced
A first mentioning of this I found in an obscure Tibetan manuscript - 'The Tibetan Book of The Great Liberation'. Then another account surfaced in the Upanishads - a collection of ancient Indian scriptures connected to the Vedas.
These texts are readily available within the public domain, yet mostly
are unknown and considered difficult to understand. (I currently
transfer these scriptures into accessible modern-day language, and will
append them later.)
A third, more elaborate - Western -
description I discovered in two manuscripts of the Nag Hammadi scrolls.
They belong to more than fifty gospels written shortly after the events
in Judea 2000 years ago, but were intentionally excluded from the
official collection of scriptures called 'The Bible'.
Actually all gospels not deemed in line with the official policy fixed
by the bishop of Rome, were declared heresies - long before
Christianity became a 'government endorsed' religion, - and discarded
in total disregard what invaluable insights these first-hand accounts
would offer into the original message of Jesus, and how significant
their contents were for future generations.
communicating these contents was punished by banishment or death, the
manuscripts hunted down and destroyed - apart from the few spirited
away and hidden like those the Bedouins of Nag Hammadi found in an old
earthenware jar in the year 1945.
What powerful information, what dangerous knowledge did these ancient scriptures contain
that they had to be destroyed, be taken so totally out of circulation,
so totally out of the minds of all people? What message could be so
menacing that even today it is still unknown to almost everyone, that even today
the catholic church undertakes considerable efforts to cover up this
information, declare it as irrelevant, render it incomprehensible to
lay people through convoluted translations to keep its inner strength
low, to detract from its inherent power?
know that early Christianity witnessed an outdrawn fight between two
fundamentally different fractions, the consequences of which still
profoundly influence us today: - The clash between those who directly experience authentic,
individual knowledge about themselves, the universe, the truth about
purpose and direction of their existence, who were highly fascinated by
these perceptions, and who knew these insights to be directly available
to everyone at all times without restriction, - and in
the other camp those eager to organize and govern a formal religion,
who thus were unwilling to permit independent, inspired, personal
insights beyond the control of authorized, licensed priests.
Any direct perception of a fundamental, all-comprehensive, blissful awareness must almost inevitably irritate those who are unable to experience such insights, - or who do not want them
in the first place. The continuous emerging of new, enthusiastic
reports of such perceptions brought incessant unrest to the community,
which time and again undermined hierarchy and administrative authority.
To stop this, the officials of the orthodox, catholic church radically
suppressed this free, expansive, ecstatic trend.
Of the more
than 50 gospels that existed 180 AD, Irenaeus, bishop of Lyon, selected
four gospels he deemed suitable to the orthodox (lit.:
'properly-thinking') fraction, - with the peculiar argument that the
compass after all had also only four cardinal points. To force everyone
to think his way, he declared his opinion to be 'universal' ('catholic'
in Greek language) and then launched an all-out attack against everyone
who disagreed with this dogma. Roughly 200 years later knowledge of
man's ability to directly and personally experience the
Magnificent, the Sublime, was effectively obliterated from general
awareness. Later attempts to revive such knowledge were pitilessly
prosecuted, its protagonists killed.
This - of course -
raises the fundamental question why experiencing and communicating a
fantastic, blissful perception enhancing one's existence needs to be
organized and administered in the first place.
might look different, if the fascination, nobility and orientation of
this original content would have continued to inspire generation after
Restoring the original fascination
As I began reading the manuscripts discovered in Nag Hammadi 1945, - scriptures not distorted by priestly translators and transcribers, - I was fascinated to find descriptions of perceptions identical to mine.
But I also realized that the words and terms predominantly used in
these texts, generated different ideas, meanings, feelings and
intuitive contents today than at the time the manuscripts were written.
Terms like 'savior', 'revelation', 'father', 'ghost'
etc. are nowadays associated with some narrow, religiously-conservative
context that does do little justice to the original intent of these
Yet the unique, original strength of the texts immediately returned once I replaced
''Father', 'Ghost', 'The Unthinkable', 'The Incredible'
'The Sublime, the Majestic Grand'
grandiose, all-comprehensive, all-permeating, subtle, blissful,
continuously expanding awareness manifesting within everything, that
causes everything, and that is permanently present within each one of
(In the restored text I use 'The Grand, the Sublime, the Majestic' according to context.)
'Gaining insight into this all-comprehensive awareness and perceiving oneself ONE with it.'
'Jesus', 'Redeemer', 'Savior'
messenger (guide), who experienced the unfoldment of this
self-initiating awareness of one's greater Self and consequently
communicated it to others.'
noticed that - because of the old fashioned, grammatically and
dogmatically correct style of translation - the texts could easily be
put down as negligible, as mere sentimentally embroidered declarations
Yet central purpose of these scriptures was - AND IS - inspiration and communication of vital information, which entirely vanish in the stiff, footnote-crammed translations currently available.
Thus - to adapt its content and inspiration to our present time, - I
formulated a new, vivid interpretation of the Gospel of Truth that
brings back life to the excitement and high emotional fascination the
original does radiate.
So as you take this in, open
heart and mind to the perception of Greatness, to the dawning of the
Magnificent, the Boundless, the Blissful deep within you. Allow its
power and unbounded sovereignty to expand your Self to this
magnificence as well.
Next: - Awakening The Highest Dimension of Life
Author: Hermann Kuhn
Book-Title: 'Where NOTHING Seems To Be'
Copyright 2009 Crosswind Publishing, Wunstorf, Germany
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